Week 6

These days are trying to eat me whole...
I find myself consumed~
by questions that have no answers
by tears that have no end
by life
& the things I cannot change.
These days
the only thing that brings relief
is to cry.
I always seem to breathe a little better afterward.

I remember the moment just before I took these images. I remember the phone call I had just hung up from. I remember the doubt and the fear and the hurt I felt. And, because self-portraiture was becoming my art, it felt like the most natural thing to step in front of the camera. That was part of healing, along with the tears. I think a lesson that I take away from this image is that it is alright to feel; that it is important to let myself feel. I still can hear the words said to me that caused these tears, and they still hurt if I think about them, but by feeling and crying and releasing I was able to move on. Its how I process. And then I forgive and then love. The only thing that I have control over is how I react. And there is nothing wrong with crying.

How do you deal with your emotional hurts?
Is crying a part of your process?
How do you move past things like this?

Wondering about this post? I am sharing my 52weeks project from 2010 each week on my blog and analyzing the image and the poem with fresh eyes two years later. For an explanation of the project and to start at the beginning click HERE.