Coffee Date

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would tell you…
That I tried to film a vlog this morning, and did a few takes and tried to talk about what’s on my heart this morning, but after each little stop and start I kept thinking… “No one cares, Shaina. No one wants to hear about how overwhelmed you are with 2 jobs and too much to keep track of or about your audit and the expectations of your boss. No one wants to hear you complain.” I couldn’t even smile to say good morning…

Maybe I should have more coffee first before I try to vlog. What I really should have done is recorded yesterday like I’ve always done before. But I woke up yesterday morning from a not very nice dream that I had a hard time shaking. I hate that part of remembering my dreams so vividly. They tend to stick with me, and not in a good way. I ended up pulling the cloud with me through the day. So yesterday’s vlog wouldn’t have been any better.

So I’ll just write today.

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would tell you…
I have been having a hard time lately with blogging. After being sick with Norovirus and not blogging that whole week I feel like I’ve stalled in my writing and my concept for this space. I want the people who visit here to read my words to find a refreshing positive take on everyday life. I want to inspire you all to celebrate the little things and value them just as much as the big things. But its really hard to inspire and encourage others when I’m struggling with it myself. The days and weeks are going by in a blur lately and I just want to stop and breathe and sit in the day and savor life for a moment. I feel really heavy when I don’t get a chance to do that. And that just leads to the negativity I feel today and the reason I couldn’t make a vlog. I didn’t want to look at my face and not see the usual sparkle in my eyes.

I’m having a hard time. And an even harder time admitting it.

But next week once the audit at work is over and life moves on hopefully I’ll be able to feel more like myself and get back to where I want to be. The stress and pressure of it is so hard for me to deal with.

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would ask you…
What do you do to deal with stress? Do you have any advice for me or suggestions for how I could leave work at work and not let it effect the rest of my everyday? I just get really invested in things and want to do my best that I give myself anxiety over all the “what if’s.” I’d love your help.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on remembering to celebrate the everyday. Is it something you have to work at too?

If we were sitting down to have coffee together what would you want to talk about? What’s on your heart today?

Linking up with Alissa from Rags to Stitches for Coffee Date. It’s a fun way to get to know lots of different bloggers. Come take a peek at her post and join us all for coffee. And have a good Friday and weekend.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my thoughts today. It felt good to share.