so much to say....

so little time.

its been like 10 days since i last posted and so much has happened. on the saturday the 8th jennifer, lyndsey and i went to penticton for the weekend. we has such an amazing time. it was one of those trips that everything worked out just as we had planned. good friends, good times, good memories. i have some great pictures from the weekend too, that i will post when i get a sec. lots of fun on the beach and eating out. crazy, crazy girls!

then on tuesday i headed up to william's lake for kelly's wedding. WHAT A WEEK!!! i really just can't believe that my best friend is married. its got me thinking about a lot of things. been quite an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least. my mom was their photographer. she did such an amazing job. i'm going this afternoon after work to get all the pictures put on cd. so after that i'll be able to post some on here. kelly was such a beautiful bride. so amazingly happy....

but for now its back to the daily grind. service and work. speaking of service, it looks like i'm not going to make my time for this year. but i guess now that i've just accepted it i can try and focus on just finding some joy in my ministry instead of making it all about numbers. i hope that new perspective will help.

anyway, that's all i have time for at the moment. hopefully i'll be able to post my pictures soon. :)

BIG NEWS!!!

lyndsey and i and her parents are going to the american idol concert tour in tacoma on september 2nd. !!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah yeah yeah!!! :) how cool is that? pam (loo's mum) surprised us with the tickets. she had this whole scavanger hunt set up and everything. it was so great. i am really excited about it.

life lessons

"Life's a party, sometimes it's just not one of those fun ones, sometimes it's bizarre, sometimes wacky, sometimes fancy, sometimes intimate, sometimes perfect, sometimes seemingly pointless, but it's never boring. Revel in it. In all of it. " -Karen Kunkel

my friend karen just sent me an e-mail that said this. i just thought it was great. i love a good quote like this. :)

the sun is too hot...

to be out in service for 5 hours. i think i'm going to die of heatstroke. i can see my life story in the watchtower already: faithful pioneer sister dies at the door. haha. it sure does make for a long day.

the tract work has been fun though. its amazing how fast we're getting through our territories. i'm impressed. :) and most people have been pretty nice about it. intrigued, i think. its a pretty special work. its cool to look at what's being accomplished in the organization and see the work speeding up as the end gets closer. i am so glad that i get to have a share in it.

this month is going to be very busy. next week i've got kelly's wedding. i can't beleive that its here already. i'm heading up on tuesday night and then spending the week with her. i'm really looking forward to it. my mom is taking the pictures, so hopefully i'll have some really nice ones to put on here. i have one of me in my dress already, but i didn't want to post it and spoil the suprise for those going to the wedding. you'll just have to see it there! i love it. my mom wants me to wear a sweater. she's silly. :)

anyway, i should go now. sleep would be a good idea. if my mind cooperates and lets me sleep.

good night for now.

;)

a month later....

yeah, its only been about a month since i've posted anything. and its not that i haven't wanted to, or haven't sat in front of the computer just thinking of typing something. i'm beginning to understand my problme.... i don't know if i want to write down how i'm feeling. words are so powerful to me. the things that can be said...sometimes i get overwhelmed at the amazing strength that the written word has. i get scared.

i get scared a lot lately.

so much has been happening. i'm feeling like everything is falling out of my controle. things that should be happy and exciting and wonderful, aren't. and what i should be doing or thinking or feeling aren't what i'm doing or thinking or feeling. i'm struggling with other people's opinons and not placing enough value on my own. i'm feeling detached and so amazingly unsure of myself.

i've got some big dicisions to make....things i need to do...things i need to say. i wish that i could just write everything out. i mean really just write. but i can't tonight. i don't know when i'll be able to. surprisingly, even just typing out this nothingness of a post makes me feel a little better. at least i've been able to pin down some of the emotions that are running through me.

i'm looking out the window watching the fireworks. little things make me smile.

i don't mind winking online at all.