music of my childhood

i just went to wal-mart.com and bought this cd. mary chapin carpenter..."state of the heart." my mom used to have the tape when i was a little girl and i used to sing all of the songs. my favorite ones are: this shirt and down in mary's land. i don't know what suddenly posessed me to buy the cd...but i can't wait for it to come.

today after service i'm supposed to take one of mom's pictures to our local frame shop "heatherdale's" to get new glass put in and a new frame. its dad's present for her for their anniversary. last year i took on of her favorite poster pictures down there and had it famed for him, too. he's very creative in his presents. i like that about him. the picture i'm taking there today is one that my mom took years ago of tulips in her old garden. she had it blown up and framed already, but the glass is broken now and the fame is pretty tattered. i hope that she likes it.

speaking of their anniversary...its on the 27th of January. i had such high hopes for this years since its their 10th anniversary. now it seems like we'll only be having a little dinner and presents with the freels. its their anniversary in january, too. that will be nice. i have managed to pull off one big surpise though: MICAH IS COMING DOWN TO VISIT!!! i'm so excited about it. its been almost a year since i've seen him, and longer for mom. micah told dad that he's coming down the last time he talked to him, but we'll be able to keep it a surprise. i can't wait!!

osoyoos

yeah....that's where i am. still don't know how i managed that one! :P my dad and connie and katrina decided to come down for a couple days and called me to see if i wanted to come and visit them. so they came and got me last nigt. katrina and i went swimming in the pool in our hotel. there is a waterslide and everything. she's such a little fish. i think she missed me and i missed her so much too. its been nice spending some time with them.

now its back to the moving life. this has been a nice little break. i'm rather anxious to move into the dewberry house. i've got all my stuff up in there and i'm missing it. we should be in soon.

unemployed....day 6

on monday morning my boss paige told me that i no longer have a job. she said that she has lots of bills and things and the easiest way to save money is to eliminate employee cost. i understand. and the strange thing is that a couple days after i got home from kelly's i kind of got the feeling that this was going to happen. so it wasn't a total shock in the moment itself...but once it sunk in i kind of had a melt-down. it feels like everything is falling apart in my life right now. i have no job, i have no home, i have no car, my best friend is in love...its amazing the emotional toll this is all taking on me. so i went yesterday and cleaned my stuff out of Page by Paige. it was hard on me...turning in my key. its strange cuz i feel almost unwelcome there now. and now on top of all of that, i have basically lost this month for service time. traveling, weather, moving...the days just slip right by me. i'm scared that if i fall behind that i won't have the energy to push forward again. i'm hoping that our CO visit in a couple of weeks will help me. i just need a new perspective and get focused again.

after i found out that i lost my job i had some really big desicions to make. the biggest one was if i was going to move to spokane right now or stay here for a few more months. on monday afternoon when i got home from service sister helen brim called me to talk to me about moving over there and becoming part of the ASL (sign language) group. she even gave me a couple different options of places that i could live over there. it was so amazing that she called when she did because i was so like: aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!! and to know that i was wanted and needed over there really made me feel good. but my problem is transportation. i don't have a car yet, and now i don't have a job, and my parent's don't want to co-sign on a loan for me until after they find and buy a new house. so that is pretty much on hold. so after a lot of praying and talking to people like my parents, and other brothers and sisters, i have decided to stay here for a few more months rather than move to spokane right away. i know that the sign language group will be there for me when i'm ready, and its a great goal for me and i think that its what jehovah wants me to do. so i'm now searching for another job so that i can get things back on track.

in other news: kelly broke her wrist and kissed jeff for the first time. yay! (well, not on the whole broken wrist part :P ) i miss her so much already. we are going to be staying in my grandparent's other house until we find a new house to move into and so we've been taking stuff there the past couple days kind of getting it ready. my room is ready now: my elephants out and my pictures of kelly up. i'd feel at home anywhere as long as i have those! :)

oh yeah: the seahawks won!!!! yay! play offs baby!!

my body aches!!! today we took 4 HUGE truckloads of stuff to the two storage units we're renting until we find a new house. i am sooo tired! its amazing how many things you can acumulate, even after only 7 years in a house. we have 5 rocking chairs...i mean, who needs 5? other than my mother...... ;) but the 4 of us had a good day today. dad, mom, KJ and me. we worked hard and got a lot done. pretty impressive! so we only have a few more days left in our house. we're going to be renting grandma and grandpa's other house in omak until we can find and move into a new place of our own. i guess that's going to be cool. i'm just a little bit sad about leaving our place.

these are the pictures of kelly and her boyfriend jeff that i promised. how cute are they? i just luv these pictures. they make me smile and make me miss my kelly already!

Shelby

this is a song by Toby Lightman that i would like to dedicate to my lil' sister shelby. i miss you and love you, hun!

"The River"
When the roads are closed
Do you know where you should be?
When the lights are dim
Are you going to come crying to me?
'Cause you're sitting there
With your legs crossed
Looking so carefree...
Do you tihnk you can run away
From your so-called misery?

[Chorus:]

Cause you know the
Tide ain't rollin' in for you
The tide ain't rollin' in for me
Are you going to sink?
Are you going to swim?
Because I'll take you down to the river...
But you're going in.

Now the choice is yours
Are you in or are you going to back out?
Well this is your life baby
Are you going to take a look around?
'Cause you seem to think that all
Your chances will chase you down
I'm telling you to open up your eyes
And take those feet off the ground.

[Chorus]

Now the roads are closed
Do you know where you should be?
When the lights are dim
Are you going to come crying to me?

[Chorus]

remember all the good times and know that i'm always here for you. this is a recent picture of the three of us when shelby was here for a visit. i love this picture. :D